maybe it's like a drug... i know for a fact that i have an addictive personality. i find something that makes me feels good, and i want it all the time. i go to great lengths to get more, and i suffer when i can't have it. whatever it is- even if it's not good for me. actually, especially if it's not good for me... i'm actually feeling withdrawal. that's sick. i've been so distracted lately that when i'm not copping a fix, i have nothing... this isn't good. i feel like shit most of the time lately. i feel like i'm running out of time. something's got to give...